An arrow flings and grazes one of your hidden, vulnerable spots. The rawness of the impact brings a long dormant facet of yourself to light. A gush of new insights rushes out. You could see how some of your dearest values grate against your ideals. For now, simply acknowledge the incompatibility instead of resolving it. Quick solutions, while attractive, may obfuscate more than they heal. Be gracious with yourself and your heart.
One of the most important moments in life is the moment you finally find the courage and determination to let go of what can't be changed. Because, when you are no longer able to change a situation, you are challenged to change yourself ... to grow beyond the unchangeable. And that changes everything. I have been experiencing blessings beyond belief. We experienced a speed bump from our bully/stalker but I understand her hatred, her revenge, her unhappiness, and her unwillingness to take charge of her own life and pursue better. I understand how degrading it must feel to have such ugliness of heart that it cannot be moved out of the past and into opportunity and self-reward. Her ugliness encourages me to pursue higher, happier expectations of myself and it is working. Her bickering that I am harassing her children, her admittance to scamming our cell phones and work phones, and her bragging of an "army" that supports her illegal activities are comical. It just proves further that her calculating nature is nothing more than cowardly and mental.
The last weeks have brought blessings. Letters of recommendation for a new adventure, vacations, a new employment position, the satisfaction of receiving certifications, a hot tub to rest weary bones, the coming of Spring, new babies, fields and gardens to plant, a grand-daughter's wedding, children reunions, a new bow, and I am anxious for the BBQs and backyard parties with friends and clubs. These are the moments that fill the days and the memories.